bleh

and so the search begins to find what are we looking and where do we belong and feel truly connected. I guess you can say its a bit of a struggle to fit in and it can really get on your nerves or in short just get to you. How does one truly navigate with so much uncertainty and dis feeling of alienation? I feel like im constantly going back and forth with this idea of oh man I sure love being alone and at the same time hate and question why am i so lonely. I believe at some point everyone must've asked themselves the same question as to why has it come down to this why have relationships and friendships become so transactional what happened to forming bonds and genuine connections what happened to this ideal that we've dreamt of which we thought we could make it true someday now it just seems like an afterthought. I think my mind's at its wits end no jokes no more games I just need something tangible to hang onto I can't take this anymore......

https://youtu.be/0Xp2K73O17M

https://youtu.be/SduEwwC6qCA

https://youtu.be/zFo2uzWsoOM